November 20, 2008
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I am sad.
I have made the decision to sell Pilot. I suspect that the decision was the hardest part and it will be slightly less painful from here on.
It feels something like grief.
The reasoning behind the decision makes me sound like all I care about is winning, which isn't true. The reason is - my chosen sport, the time, money and effort put in to showing - is not what Pilot wants to do. I have tried for two full years, have made excuse after excuse for him. He has improved out of sight, but he is still inconsistant. Lets me down again and again. He does not enjoy it. I do not enjoy it.
So, I am taking him to a show tomorrow, and one next weekend, that I have already entered for. Then the day after that, he is going to spend some time with a friend of mine who does jumping - showjumping, eventing. She is going to get him up and going and then I will make a decision as to how I will market him for his new career. I want him to be going the very best he can - not so that I will get the best price for him - but so that he gets the very best home possible where they will love the pants off him.
It is the right decision, but it breaks my heart.
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I'm so sorry, Sal.
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Sometimes, some horses and us don't get along. I used to ride 2 mares that HATED me, and I hated them. We just never clicked. Mac, on the other hand, the first year that I got him was hell, but something just clicked and we made a great team.
It's sad, but if you're not meant for each other, then it's the right decision. You'll be happier in the long run, he'll be happier once he finds the right job, and it'll turn out okay. You're brave and really strong for deciding it... I know I'd be torn to pieces, too.
Good luck! <3
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