November 22, 2011

• ohhhhhhh

  Welcome back to my brain!!! I've emerged, fortunately and unfortunately, different. I've had to think more, be aware of more. Losing your ability to string a sentence together is a little profound.

  I'm learning alot. I've been blogging on blogger but it is about horses - well, my zen focus on Mindful Riding. I shall share the link. Just in case. Three posts so far.

  So today was a little overly dramatic. Normal sort of day. Towards the end, got a call that my darling horse, my Lou, was caught in a fence. I had to drive to pick Tom up from daycare, to get home to her. I didn't know what I was going to find. My usual Awesome in an Emergency Persona left me entirely. I cried with raw fear all the way home. THANK GOD she is OK. I hugged her and cried, and let people see me cry, and it was just normal.

  Just about to go home, Marek phones me. What am I doing, he is local. I say, come to my house, lets have a wine. I give him my address. Some time after, I hear a fast car. I see his fast car disappear up the road. I text him "hey you egg, assumethat you, I'm the white house with the red roof". No reply. I miss a call. I call him back. Don't get him. Wonder what he is doing up my road. Has he had an accident? He phones me. "Um, I've destroyed my car". I drive up there. Lucky to be alive. Long story short - he left in a police car, I gave him a hug and involuntarily kissed his neck. He phoned me after they processed him at the police station for drink driving - I can't judge, I've done it, I'm just glad I guess that his lesson didn't involve death. I make sure he is OK - he is being picked up. I wish I could be holding him. Gah. As a friend, mind!!!

  Managed to curb my alcoholism, haha. Balance, balance.

  Lessons to be learned all around.

  MAYBE I should start one of those youtube blogs where Idon't have to think about writing. I'm not lazy - I'm finger blocked. I write in my head.

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